War for Stability

Falling through the
Neverending abyss
Of despair.

I find that I
Just cannot win
In my war for
Stability.

I try to make
Those around me
Happy. But conceding
Never seems to work.

In my wayfor stability,
I fall face-first into
A wall of self-doubt.

I beat on it,
and scream at it.
Only to burst into tears
In the end, it truly
Doesn't matter.

I have lost my war
For my own stability
As I lie here
On my bed
Venting my anger
With pen and paper.

I just want the pain
To go away and
Face the sun and
Scream "I'm free!"